I walked in abysmal darkness many days.
I cried out for love to empty echoes.
I sat alone in a despairing lonely haze
Of endless tears and many woes.
When I feared I had no time left,
That all life had abandoned me,
I fell to my knees in great distress
And called on the Lord God in tearful pleas.
I feared he would not answer me
For I was a worthless soul to perceive.
My despair was my iniquity.
There was no earthly reason to believe.
On bended knee I bowed my head.
I cried tears of shame in the unfathomable dark.
I feared that, to the Lord, I was dead.
I felt no light in my dying heart.
In a soft wisp of a whispered breeze
He stood before me in a robe of white.
He said “Stand my lamb and I will give you peace!”
“You are not forgotten in this world my child.”
The darkness lifted as he gazed at me
With love shining from his radiant heart
And with a dawning realization I could see
That he had walked with me in the dark.
My Lord had never left my side
I had not wandered through the emptiness alone,
I had chosen in my selfish pride
To trod the darkened path on my own.
I cried at his feet in humbled blame.
How could I have been so blind not to see?
I cowered there held down by chains
Of self-contempt and despondency.
With a gentle touch upon my soul he sighed.
“My child, do not forget that I first loved you!”
“Is it so?” I desperately cried.
He smiled. “Believe my love, for it is true!”
Abiding peacefulness entered my heart.
I shed tears of copious joy and abounding love
For a God, from whom, I will never part
On this earthly world and in heaven above.
I have been given a second chance at life
From my God who had first loved me.
Saved from darkness by the blood of Christ.
Grace for all eternity.
1 John 4:19 We love him because he first loved us.